Don't rain on my parade

Why chose a major that would potentially throw you over the edge with its grueling studying, work and topics.
Why even try when you'll probably change it within the same year?

These are just some of the things that I've heard from people about my choice. Most have been supportive with everything, but there are those few people who twist the way you look at your future. They make you start to doubt. 

I've been starting to doubt a lot. Doubt in my school choice and my future career. I've started to think that I'm not smart enough to study science.

BUT, I have to remember why I've chosen this future.
If I go back to 4 years ago when I was just a teeny tiny little high school freshman and made a decision to spend my spring break on a missions trip, I'll remember exactly why. Last minute (like the day before I had to leave) I was given the opportunity to go for free to Haiti and the Dominican Republic (for now on known as the DR). In the DR we went to a home that held orphans. These kids had stories that I would never wish upon anyone. Stories that break my heart into many pieces everyday. There I met this girl along with many other beautiful kids.

This is Juanita. She was the first seed that was planted in God's huge garden that's known as my life. 

We then went to small villages in Haiti where we brought different items such as food and toys for the kids. We also showed a film about Jesus. We wanted to share the love while we were there. 

Here is where the seeds began to grow a little. 

Now let's fast forward to my youth camp in 2012. 

(Caution, you may find this absolutely insane if you haven't experienced it. Proceed)

This is where I felt the Lord speak to me. During worship I felt numb all over like I couldn't move. I was sent to the floor on my knees and just praised. I began to repeat the phrase; where ever you lead me, I will follow; which for me comes from Matthew 16:24 (Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.) 

Forever I will choose to serve the Lord. Whatever his plan says for me is what I will do. If  you truly do what you're called to, you'll love it! I says that God gives us the desires of our heart as long as it serves and glorifies him!

Through this night I realized that God wanted me to do something for his people. I need to go out and reach the unreachable, the incurable, the ones that no one wanted and serve them. 

How did I decide to do this? Through Pre-med. 

Now that you know my desire to be a missions doctor....

Please, 

Don't rain on my or better yet, Jesus's (he gets all the glory) parade.